Horoscope

Honestly, I'm not really into believing horoscopes. But for entertainment purposes and for boring days' sake, I still read them. I just feel like sharing my philosophy about my horoscope for today with you all. Here goes...

Umm... by the way, my zodiac sign is Virgo and for "consistency's" sake I checked some horoscope-reading sites. 


astrology.com
Your emotional side is stronger than usual today, and you can use that to your advantage. It may drive you to do some interesting or strange things, but that's all part of the package.


horoscope.com
It is easy to appear like you have it together when everything is going well, but being together when things aren't going your way is much more impressive. To do this you need both humility and prowess. Don't be fooled by pretentious associates when you're trying to be real.

astrology-online.com
You may be emotional if you allow your lover to take advantage of your good nature. Try not to hesitate; act on your initial instincts. You may find that your boss is not delighted with your work lately.

tarot.com
It's all about communication today, but sticking with detached analytical facts will likely leave you feeling unsatisfied. You must dig a bit deeper now in order to get past your logical filter that can keep you from fully engaging with your experiences. You may not understand the reason for everything that's happening, but you'll have time to put your amazing day into perspective later if you just let it unfold without resistance.

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Phrases highlighted coincides with what I believe has been true (so far) today. I think that these horoscopes were generally crafted as to the reader to recognize himself/herself in it and I personally think that mine had been partly true. But in my opinion, there is no harm in believing in horoscopes but making it the basis of your daily living is purely ridiculous! There is no one else who knows the reason for the happenings in our daily lives and there's no one else who knows what will happen to us in the future- Only God.

So what's your horoscope for today? I hope you don't take it that seriously... :)

just a test

I could not forget the day I studied for my high school entrance exam. I was sitting in the living room reading the dictionary- a hobby I developed since I was ten- when daddy approached me and told me to review my mathematics.

If I were looking at myself from another person's eyes, I would have seen it full of dread one second, and contorting into a look of disgust, the next. Simply put, I hated math. It wasn't that I'm not good with it but I disliked doing anything concerning it. I was mad at my daddy for stealing my glorious hour of dictionary-reading and I was disappointed with myself for allowing it to happen. At thirteen, I was kind of a spoiled child. I am used to getting things my way.

So when daddy told me to put the dictionary down and handed me the math reviewer, I started to grumble. He was patient with me and even politely gave me the other review materials (paper and pencil- "no calculator!" he said.) I obeyed him but I kept my complaints to myself so he wasn't able to notice about the way I really feel about our tutoring sessions. He tutored me for hours and every time he flicked a new page, or a new problem to solve I crinkled my nose. Eventually, he found out that I wasn't up for math so he told me "If you don't pass the entrance exam of this school, then I wouldn't let you go to any school. It's this school or none."

Maybe I was too afraid of not entering high school. I was too worried that the night after he told me that, I tossed and turned on my bed and woke up for consecutive nights, sweating and recovering from nightmares. Maybe, I realized, I valued education that much to be affected so much by what he said.

After school, I studied and reviewed for the test. I still had nightmares but they became less vivid as I felt more and more confident about the accomplishments I had in my review. Soon, not only me was happy about my achievement, daddy and mommy was too. The day came when I took the exam and I was confident with it and I was sure that I was going to pass it and I was readying myself with the big grin I would give my parents when I see my name on the list of the students that the school will be accepting.

Only that I wasn't able to give the big ol' grin I was practicing. I felt a big pang of disappointment and I could sense that my parents felt it too. I was not an achiever, but I was not a failure. I was just an average student who got more grades than what is enough but not too high as to be included in the honor list. Umm... okay, I was always included in the top ten list of achievers of our class of almost sixty students and that was the reason why I found myself in a different light- or without the light, whatever-you-name-it situation.

Anyway, when I found out that my efforts resulted to nothing, I wanted to cry and hug my mommy or my daddy or any of my younger siblings. I know very well how I tried my best and most of all, I was so scared at not having a secondary education.

I dug my hands on my face and cried for hours. Daddy asked me why I was crying and I told him. He laughed at me and told me it was okay. I told him "No! I won't be going to school after all and I hate myself for letting me lose my chance..."

With this, he laughed more. He told me that he was not really serious when he told me that I really need to pass the entrance exam. He just told me that to test if I really valued education and if I was really serious in my studies. He told me that it was just a challenge on my part- a challenge which could not be necessarily imparted on me.

"Really?" I said wiping my tears with the back of my hand. I can't believe that it was just a test.

One song per artist

Taylor Swift- Forever and Always
Jesse McCartney- Just so you know
Westlife- Obvious
Blue- Breathe Easy
Backstreet Boys- I just want you to know
Katy Perry- Thinking of You
A1- You're not in love
S club 7- Say goodbye
Beyonce- Halo
Mariah Carey- We belong together
David Cook- Always be my baby
98 degrees- I do (cherish you)
Leann Rimes- I need you
Delta Goodrem- Born to try
No Secrets- I'll remember you
Leona Lewis- Here I am
Lifehouse- You and Me
Avril Lavigne- Keep Holding on
Five for fighting- 1oo years
Laura Pausini- I need love
Marie Digby- Say it again
Ryan Cabrera- True
Dido- Thank you
Celine Dion- Because you love me
Jordan Hill- Remember me this way
Three Doors Down- Here without you
Debbie Gibson- Lost in your eyes
Kelly Clarkson- My life would suck without you
Colbie Caillat- Realize
Lady Gaga- Poker Face
Mandy Moore- Top of the World
Sarah Mclachlan- Angel
Gareth Gates- Say it isn't so
The Click five- Just the girl
Jonas Brothers- Love bug
Ronan Keating- When you say nothing at all
Stephen Speaks- Out of my league
Edwin Mccain- I'll be
Hoobastank- The reason
Faith Hill- There You'll be
Natasha Bedingfield- Unwritten
Shakira- Underneath your clothes
Christina Aguilera- Reflection
Britney Spears- Lucky
Matchbox Twenty- Unwell
Elliot Yamin- Wait for you
Aaron Carter- Do you remember
Paula Cole- Heart Door
Boys like Girls- Thunder
Natalie Imbruglia- Torn
Renee Sandstrom- Here I am
Savage Garden- Truly Madly Deeply
Hugh Grant- Way back into love
Smash Mouth- All Star
Maroon 5- Won't go home without you
David Archuleta- A little to not over you
Christina Millan- Until I get over you
Miley Cyrus- The Climb
Hilary Duff- Stranger
Lindsay Lohan- Over
Jojo- Not that kind of girl
SWV- Weak
Bellefire- I'll never get over you
Sarah Bareilles- Love Song

dream and wish

What's the difference between a dream and a wish? Many people often think that dream is synonymous with wish. I myself found nothing different when I was asked to distinguish one from the other.

My friend told me that her teacher told her this:

"A dream and a wish pertain to hoping to get or to achieve something you want, but the similarities end there... To dream is personally doing something you aim. To wish is waiting for someone to do it for you."

So do you dream or do you wish?

crush on you...

"i keep waiting for you but you never come." - a line of the song I was singing when suddenly, I saw you pass by... And it's as if someone poured cold water on me that I froze, speechless as I met your eyes. And then I bowed my head, continued to walk and felt the world start moving again...

top ten things to do when stuck on a mountain

10. Have your picture taken with the cow and have a sitcom with the goat. Eating grass should gain their trust. =p

9. Eat cottonseed- This should test your patience since they're very tiny and you have to remove it's outer covering. Hint: Have you ever eaten squash seeds?

8. Lie on the meadows and 'kiss' the rain pouring on your face- one way of reuniting with nature.

7. Climb trees. Warning: Watch out for red ants, they bite like hell!

6. Piss off your cousin until he decides to 'kidnap' your left shoe and asks you for a chocolate bar as a ransom.

5. Forget the chocolate bar: Give the other pair of shoe to him and tell him to 'take care of it'. Next, take out the emergency slippers tucked inside your backpack and... voila! You just made the 'kidnapper' a candidate for anger-management. ^_^

4. Open your umbrella, let it catch the wind, and let it 'fly'! Watch it go away... away... way... ay...

3. Sing at the top of your lungs. No one's going to hear you anyway... except perhaps grasshoppers, bugs, snakes... etc.

2. Eat using banana leaves as a plate. This should be fun... as long as you have food, anyway.

and the number 1 thing to do when you're stuck on a mountain...

1. Walk really slowly since the ground is really wet and slippery. Oh, I realize that it's out of the question. Your feet is dipped in thick, heavy mud, anyway... hahaha...


Take it from me... But seriously. It's your choice. This is just me making a random list for the things that happened during our out of town. So much fun!  :)

Place of realization: Barili, Cebu
Date: May 30, 2009
With whom: My family!

romeo and juliet

Since I reread Romeo and Juliet - and reading it aloud made me see it in a different light- I'm going to compile some of my favorite verses, which to tell you honestly, is not much. And yeah right, when I first read this I was distraught about the plot. But now, I am amazed by the language- the beauty of it. You don't believe me? Read on to see what I mean.

So let's start off!

#1
"See how she leans her cheek upon her hand!
O, that I were a glove upon that hand, That I might touch that cheek!"

#2
"Come, gentle night; come, loving, black-browed night;Give me my Romeo; and, when I shall die,Take him and cut him out in little stars, And he will make the face of heaven so fineThat all the world will be in love with night..."

It's just so romantic that I cannot believe myself when I thought that for my cynical beliefs about love, this is not cheesy- and that is saying something.


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I know this line is anticipating tragedy, but it's too strong I can't abandon it.
"These violent delights have violent endsAnd in their triumph die, like fire and power,
which as they kiss, consume."


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Beat this, emo people!
"He jests at scars that never felt a wound."


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Very philosophical and sarcastic... Nice one!
"How art thou out of breath, when thou has breath to say to me that thou art out of breath?"


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Strikes me as funny...
"Nay, gentle Romeo, we must have you dance.
Not I, believe me: you have dancing shoes with nimble soles: I have a soul of lead, so stakes me to the ground I cannot move."

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Oh... yes. I know what you'll think about these two... flattering!

#1
"Death that hath sucked the honey from thy breath hath had no power yet upon thy beauty."
#2
"Can I go forward when my heart is here? Turn back, dull earth, and find thy centre out."
*sighs*


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and the most worn out verse in the history of all plays but I still love it and have actually memorized the lines... Tadaah!

"O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name;
Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,
And I'll no longer be a Capulet."


and of course, I can't forget...

"What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet."
Okay, it's not that romantic but I tell you, the idea is. You know, that 'someone would not really mind who you are because it really doesn't matter' kind of romantic. I think it's just empowering to know that someone would abandon his or her name for the sake of love... as a name is very special and- not to mention- sacred.

But then again, it's Romeo and Juliet we're talking about. I mean, how did they know these things? They were so young- not even fourteen! Honest, they have really sweet mouths! A bow to the Bard's greatness!

By the way, *me and my plugging instincts kicking again* Have you seen Romeo x Juliet? This is an anime based on Shakespeare's original which is so interesting, considering that there are major plot turns that are really refreshing and mind blowing. Anyway, I think I'll just make another blog post about it though since I don't want to get a little off-tangent... again... hehehe...

"Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow
That I shall say good night till it be morrow." ~Romeo and Juliet (Act 2, Scene 2)

My Gentleman

Shall I forget his raven colored hair, or his full red lips,
Or the warmth I felt on my fingertips as his hands held mine?
How can I not remember his honey brown eyes-
Which sent shivers through me,
As he fixed them on my unbelieving stare?

He swept me off my feet...
My gentleman, so sweet, so honest.
He gave me his heart, with love- the purest.
A fascinating man, with wit, intelligence, wisdom-
My Prince Charming in his humble little kingdom...

He's a heavenly being, with a smile so lovely.
He can breathe life into words, a lover of poetry.
He made me laugh- made my gloomy day seem bright.
And I'd never feel lonely in a cold cruel night.

An almost impeccable man- faithful, responsible even,
A little mysterious, intriguing, handsome, and obedient.
What have I done to deserve someone so fine?
Everything about him is a gift so divine...

And then I wake up to find this gentleman a dream.
What pity it is for you to say and believe
That this gentleman is my unreachable fantasy,
But I have a feeling he is real and somewhere near.

Have you ever seen my dream boy- the perfect man for me?
He's the man I wish to be with- forever I believe.
He has black hair, brown eyes... (see everything above)
Please... If you do, kindly lead him back to me.

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I wrote this last night, and this is dedicated to the unknown person which occupies my sleeping and waking fantasies... I know it is too romantic for words but at least I attempted to dedicate this to him, whoever he is...

God! I sound crazy... but whatever! =p

Books I Have Read

I realized that I should have listed the books I've read a long time ago, that way, I won't forget about them. I quote this from Paula Cohen, author of 'Jane Austen in Scarsdale':

"Books don't get used up. They are not like clothes or furniture. We keep them because we might want to read them again... and they remind us of how we felt when we read them."

But because I find it hard to do so, let me just share to you this link in my read list from Goodreads. I just want to clarify that just because I read them, does not mean I like them all. I just read some of the books out of curiosity.

Enough said. Just click the icon above for my read list and feel free to add me in Goodreads or comment below for next book to read suggestions.

Thanks!

 XXX

Anamellie

Moi

Okay! I admit, the first entry wasn't that polite. So I'm going to post another entry and since this blog is new -and I'm not even sure if I've christened it right- I'm going to put some things about myself. I'm sure this will be nothing like the assignment our psychology teacher gave us two semesters ago which by the way, required us to write one thousand words about ourselves that required more than five pages of yellow paper. No this will be brief and concise. So take a deep breath and read on...

First off, I want to state that I am not comfortable to reveal my name on this blog. Though there are other ways that my real name could be acquired, I still won't say it straightforward here (you can research though =p), but I do have many nicknames and sometimes I call them pen names because I am an aspiring writer. They are daena, anamellie, and hana.

As I have said, I dream to be a writer or even a novelist and I have been writing stories since I was ten. Sad to say, some of my works are unfinished. Much worse, some are irretrievable because of the recent hard disk crash. :(

Anyway... moving on.

I am a college student who enjoys life the way a college student should. Translation: The pressure of having to pass and the joys of passing.

People always assume that I am shy and aloof. Those impressions don't often last especially when they get to know me better. In short, I am just like a box of fireworks waiting to be lit.

As of Today, there are 150 days until my next birthday for which I would have nineteen candles on my cake. Ok. Go figure that out.

I am a person who loves collecting bookmarks and quotes and I'm also a bookworm. I love to read a lot of books to stimulate my mind. Don't get me wrong though. I don't really love academic books because I find them uninteresting sometimes. Peace to my Professors!

Music = Life

I love music and I can't live without it. I could listen to all the genres as long as they wouldn't hurt my eardrums. My personal favorites are from the 90's and beyond.

My favorite colors are pink and green. I'm not really obsessed (as in "everything-i-own-are-colored-pink-and-green") about these two colors but I think they are pleasing to my eyes.

I love to travel to beautiful places and watch wonderful scenery and breathtaking sights.

I love to sing but I hate to dance even though I know how (a little). During our PE class, we were required to perform a group dance presentation and we even received the honor to have the highest possible grade. I'm not bragging. =p

That's all. Wasn't that too short. I do wish I were not too random. ;)

Simple Questions with Not so Clear Answers

There are so many simple questions that we often neglect answering properly... I just listed some of them... =p

1. Have you already eaten?

-i'm not hungry...


2. Is your mother around?

-why?


3. what time is your class?

-this afternoon...


4. Where have you been?

-just somewhere...


5. How did you do it?

-it's easy...


6. Why were you not around yesterday?

-i was absent...


7. What time is it?

-still early!


8. Where do you like to eat?

-how about you?


9. Where are you?

-i'm coming!

~anamellie~

Dear John (a novel by nicholas sparks)

Warning: This blog entry may contain spoilers. If you are still planning to read this book and don't want to know about the surprises, do not continue to read... You have been warned!!!

The book is heartbreaking yet bittersweet... and it gives us a view about one of the most asked question of all time:

"What is true love?"

It's the question that you'll repeatedly ask and try to answer while reading the book, and you'd find that the answer may make you change what you believe about what true love is. The book talks about sacrifices, choices, and pains that make truly loving another worthwhile. It may not speak literally of staying physically forever with the person you've set your heart to, but it tells us that true love doesn't die. For all the memories of real, strong, and powerful love are ours to keep wherever we go... and when we look back on those memories, we may experience pain for that lost true love but still be able to smile to ourselves as we think that seeing our loved one happy gives us the power to sustain that love for the rest of our lives.

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... and to tell you the truth, I was still crying long after I've read the Epilogue... it must have been that tear jerker huh?

A realization: "When we love, we must accept that pain is part of the package".

~anamellie~